@_@

I read so slow..
AIYA

=)

Hello~~

Today is a good day!

english

ouuuu so many words i dont know
wtf wtf wtf

Very Smart

Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving.

- Albert Einstein

Constantly reminding myself.. my goals!


Do not forget what I'm here for!!

Goals

Meeting him maybe wasn't so bad afterall

he reminded me not to forget my dream

i felt lost and didn't know what to do

did not feel motivated

now i feel ambitious

and so many on my to-do list

goals, now i remember why i held on for so long


the things i've forgotten

the reason i am here

Lalala

失去了愛情
可是還有 友情,親情,事業,尊嚴
珍惜現在擁有的
JUST LET GO
不然失去的更多


Explore. Dream. Discover.

Growing up is hard and the hardest part in letting go of the past.

最近好倒霉喔

頭好疼. 心也好疼.
感覺一直被人指責..被人誤會..被人罵
好不開心..

Girls are so scary

This particular girl has been spreading really bad rumours about me..
and somehow she makes herself sound like the victim..
she seems like she knows about my personal life a lot that it creeps me out..
what does she have against me..?
I'm kind of scared..
what are other people gonna think of me now..

girls are so scary..

@_@

Shit happens so fast..
You can't even prevent it..
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

混亂

我覺得我是一位敢愛敢當的人. 不論發生什麼事我都會堅持到底. 可能因為我對愛情的堅持害我一次又一次的悲傷害.
算了吧. 人生不過就如此.

開始想靜一靜. 不太想認識別人. 不太像交朋友.

不知道什麼時候,我被 酒肉朋友, 心機, 妒嫉, 是非 循饒著. 不喜歡過度的醉, 不喜歡被菸噴得滿臉.

我應該消失一陣子吧

有沒有我沒差

好想回到簡簡單單的日子!
~Simple Days~

Need You Now

I'm addicted to this song called
Need you now - Lady Antebellum
I LOVE THIS SONG!! their voices are amazing :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eB7T3lJ3dZ4

NEED TO BUY list

- bright skirt
- leopard printed something
- bold tanks
- new patent heels
- wedges
- white dress
- bright dresses
- floral something

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
sponsor anney??? :D

Ultimate Stage

最高的境界就是..
就算你擁有他, 可是你並不在乎

PARTY LIKE NO TMW

screw all that shittttt.. and just have funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

LG = life is good

Pet Animal

如果我能比喻我像什麼的話..
我覺得我像一個Pet Animal
無聊,沒人陪的時候才找我玩
對我愛理不理的感覺 我受夠了
為什麼我都是在等的那個人
走開 我說不出口

Metamorphosis

For one minute, I believed I learned my lesson and moved on. I keep walking back and forth. Ultimately, I'm still in the same position I was in. I might think things have changed and rationalize to myself that things will be different.. that I don't care anymore.

The story ending will always be the same -- a tragedy, because we always make the same mistakes.

"Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come.." -- The Wonder Years

Just grow out of it.. then one day you'll look back and laugh at yourself how stupid you were.

The end is a new beginning.

往新的方向買進

我想擺脫以往的自己
我把Leah Dizon為目標。。動力~~
XDDD

What really matters..

I live for myself.. and nobody else.

This picture is called The Breakthrough.



-- I really like his art!
http://nadeemchughtai.com/index.html

Can history repeat itself?

Are we just engaged in a never-ending cycle, destined to repeat the tragedies of our past? We fail to learn from their mistakes all the time. In the end, we find ourselves caught up in a familiar situation time and time again finding ourselves in a vicious cycle.

Somehow it reminds me of this article Mr. Shum showed us back in gr.12. Zoo animals are trapped in the zoo. Even though they have the ability to escape, they don't because outside their cages, they are not their territories. They are afraid of what the world is like outside. So instead, they rather be hopeless and vulnerable caged inside the zoo.

Similarly, we are stuck in this never-ending cycle. Deep inside, we want to get out of this. But also at the same time, we don't want to because we're so used to it already. Thus, we keep making the same mistakes. We are scared just like the zoo animals..

We do learn from our mistakes. It's just that we forget them and repeat again.

Stupid Girls

Just a friend, just a brother.. why do I have to constantly remind myself that? I know there's no chance.. I let it go. Why am I still jealous of other girls? I'm so stupid.. I like to drink dry vinegar..Why isn't my heart convinced? I have to accept it anyways.. because that day will come sooner or later..

Lately been partying a lot because I want to meet new people.. Actually I feel so lonely. I just want to have lots of people around me. It's not about finding a new guy. I just don't want to be alone..

I don't have his attention.. so I want attention of others.. It's just not enough.

I feel like I wasn't being myself last night.. I kinda forgot my limits, but I remembered it again.. I just want to run far far away.. and find comfort in pain~

Maybe it's just better if I'm hiding away.. not knowing anything.. no facebook.. and disconnect from the world.. life would be so much better.. Can I do it?

Oh no

I feel like i ruined my throat LOl.. i sing worst than before.. DAMN
I think I yelled too much.
and I drank too much :(

Sisyphus

Laugh because you are happy or happy because you are laughing?

I've always been trying to figure out what is missing in my life. I thought happiness would come around for me. I never thought how everything would end in their ways. I felt like I had a good grasp, but apparently it slipped through my hands once, twice, and thrice. Each time, people would tell me the next one would be better. I felt like I am climbing a never ending staircase.. believing that there will be an exit.

Since little, we are told to be successful in life. In order to do so, you have to be at the peak of the mountain. We've been trying to get to the peak.. every step we take, we think this is it -- we've reached the peak. Unfortunately, it is like a endless path..there is a higher peak after this, and a higher peak after that and it goes on. It is like a punishment. No matter how hard we try, we'll never reach it. It is like Sisyphus.

"In Greek mythology, Sisyphus was a king punished in Tartarus by being cursed to roll a boulder up a hill, only to watch it roll back down, and to repeat this throughout eternity." - Wiki

It is rewarding to have a goal, to aim for something beyond. But it is also a punishment that you can never reach it.

The perfect life. What is that?

Real people

People who are willing to stick out for you when you really need them is hard to find.
I think it's even harder to find them in University. I'm happy that I've met a really close bunch of people in High School and I don't think I can find any replacements of them.
For me there are four types of friends: Friends that I can do ANYTHING and EVERYTHING with, study buddy friends, friends who I can talk to and friends who I can hang out and chill, but not close enough to tell them what I think.

I have quite a few study buddy friends. They are just there for homework help and etc. I can't see them as friends that I want to party with. The fun chemistry isn't there. It's not that I can't act stupid around them, it is that I chose not to. I don't feel like it.


I have a lot of friends who I can hang out and chill with. But of course, there are some I choose to hang out more than others. They are fun having around. Would they really stick out for me when I need them? Do they really care if I'm sad or just simply tell me to get over with it?

There are few friends that I can talk to. I tell them everything. But they are just there for mental support. They are really good friends. Besides that we have a different lifestyle.

I love my besties because they are all that combined. I don't think I have settled with one bestfriend in my entire life. I think I have several bestfriends because they are equally important to me. I think they would be the only one who will really put their words into actions for me. Meeting people like that is hard. It just happens and I cherish them very much.

I was at Dorie's birthday party at K-ZONE. Looking at her having fun with friends that she's only semi-close with.. is kinda depressing. Some people came out just because they want to party. Some people came out just because they want to drink. Some people came out because they want to meet girls.

She was quite drunk last night and sadly her guy friends took advantage of her. I wonder if they are even considered as friends. Meh, I don't want to have friends that would treat me like that. I don't think they would be real to me. They are good party friends.. I guess.

Friends.

Why do I think so much? Maybe it's spring and my hormones are working up? I get so emotional lately that it's eating me alive.

I'm so grateful of my friends. They are so considerate to me :'(
I'll remember this 'til the day I hit my coffin.
They are so mature compared to me. They think about everything.. where as I don't think! = =
I LOVE YOU GUYSSS :'(
I don't think I can ever find any replacements..

So touching. Sigh So touched that I was in tears tonight.

人生方向迷了路

這條路沒有想象中那麼好走。
曾經目睹過朋友放棄他們的夢想﹐
因為真的撐不下了。
現在我又看看我的周遭﹐
大家都為同樣的事而煩惱﹐
漸漸地對自己沒信心。
不知道什麼時候開始我也覺得自己的能量有限。
成功不是一天兩天的努力可以得來的﹐
就只能怪自己不夠他人努力。
我認為我與夢想的距離越來越遠
希望現在的自己只是一時﹐
很快就可以走去這黑暗中。
只要我堅持﹐不要放棄﹐我一定可以的!!!

Obstacles in Life

Throughout our lives, we encounter some obstacles that distract us from our goals. Whether it is eating a midnight snack when you're on a diet or can't afford loosing your beloved. The obstacles are everywhere. However, you choose how you want to view it.

An obstacle is more like a challenge put in front of us . Do you see an obstacle with fear and hesitation or an opportunity to overcome a challenge?

An obstacle is an opportunity for us to prove that we can handle this challenge. We have the power to handling the situation. Our frame of mind and thoughts are very powerful. Obstacles allow you to see the reality. A chance to stay focus and make the right decisions.

What we go through are not the problems, it is how we react to the situation determines how we feel. Certain circumstances make us become more open-minded and accept resources that will help us and be able to adapt to change.

So don't let obstacles hold you down, instead use it to help you stay focus and strong.

Remorse

I've finally talked things out with him ..in my sober state. I'm pretty selfish because whatever I did was what I wanted. I neglected how he felt. Despite my constant pestering, he still took his patience with me. Other than my really close friends (you know who you are), I think he really cares how I feel. He doesn't say anything to me before, but my friends tell me how concern he is about me. I know I reminded him of the unwanted past, I feel really bad for doing that. There's too many things in life to worry about. Our life is too short to even bother with those. I just want to let things cool down. He has his life and I have mine.

Live. Laugh. Love.

It is never too late to realize who truly cares for you.

Quote

"Girls are like cell phones, they like to be held and talked to, but press the wrong button and you're disconnected. Guys are like buses. If you miss that one, another will be along soon. "

初戀的感覺

雖然功課很多
今天看完了就想賴著你 - 有初戀的fuu~哦!
突然我有莫名的預感
我的桃花快來了!! 開心 :)
Feels like the season of love!

說謊

To You:

我沒有說謊 我何必說謊
愛一個人沒愛到難道就會怎麼樣
別說我說謊 人生已經如此的艱難
有些事情就不要拆穿

So please stop asking me.

Being Yourself

A lot of things are going through my head and I can't get them together. It's like random bubbles popping up everywhere and I just can't connect them. So this is going to be all over the place haha..

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."~ Dr. Seuss

Few weeks ago, I was and still somewhat am engaged in some new hobbies (snowboarding, watching NBA, cheering Canada on for Olympics, going out for dinner frequently and etc). I couldn't tell whether I wanted to try something new or I just want to find that common interest with that person. Even though I did enjoy those hobbies, but underneath, I felt like I was conforming to that person. I was becoming more like him or her and less of myself.

"I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know I may end up failing too
But I know you were just like me
With someone disappointed in you"

The song just popped up in my head.

When there is a common topic/interest you guys can talk about, you feel more engaged in the conversion and more accepted into their worlds. Maybe this is a form of avoiding rejection. You want to do whatever makes the person happy. But are you happy yourself or happy that he/she is happy?

No one should conform to nobody, otherwise everyone would be the same and the world would be a boring place to be. Sometimes, it takes a little courage being yourself. You are not the same person when you are at home youtubing than when you're in class. You are not the same person when you're in DP studying than when you're partying. But all of them is you. I think it just depends which part you are more willing to display. It's not really faking it, but rather not showing the entire truth?

I felt like I lost myself on the way of finding others' acceptance. During reading week, I have slowly pulled myself away from these people. I need to find myself again before talking to them. I think I'm slowly finding myself back (I miss me).

I agree with Dr. Seus' quote. You don't need to be a copy to be liked because they aren't truly liking you. I will cherish those people who like me because I am me.

Bad Habit

Maybe it's the people I hang out with.. "It's so gay!" or "That's so retarded!" means nothing to us.. It's just our way of talking.. We say it all the time.. to fill in the blanks lol ..Now that I think about it.. It's really insulting to those people. I think I should eliminate this bad habit~ I don't want to discriminate others~

輕鬆多了

我們的緣份以盡了。
試著不再想他。。我也慢慢適應當中
我忙我的/
突然覺得其實沒有我想像中那麼...
anyways, who cares?
小姐我忙得很

感嘆

有人問我到底喜歡你什麼? 當初可能是被你的甜言蜜語給騙了吧。我呢﹐很容易相信別人。。很容易卸下心房。當初你給我一個莫名的安全感。。好像我可以依賴著你似的。我追求的愛情是最簡單不過的。只是想有一個人愛我﹐保護我﹐陪伴我在我最脆弱的時候。沒錯﹐一開始對你有點反感。認識你之後﹐覺得你是一個不錯的朋友。而跟你單獨相處的時候﹐發現你很可愛。。笑點超低的﹐不過我不就也只是如此。發現你跟我一樣缺乏安全感。雖然你不是很有錢﹐也不是很帥。。可是我重覺得當我真的很需要你的時候。。你會在我身旁。

你對我忽冷忽熱真的很難受。。最近我越來越失去理智了。無法好好的思考。當初你對我的熱情早已離去了。。我也知道。很氣自己為什麼一直糾纏著你。

等待著你有多麼痛苦阿。。我終於要放棄你了。終於還給自己一點自由。我也不想在煩你了。你根本也不想跟我說話。 我覺得我自己很多餘。。很失敗。

已經幾個月了。。是時候該放下了。

Never felt so invisible in my life

He remembers that he has to watch Blind Side with his "friend" (assuming his friend is a girl.. who else wants to watch blind side..), but he doesn't remember Saturday..

Anney is always forgotten
because Anney is never wanted..

12星座暗戀歷程

白羊座=最不懂掩飾的暗戀
白羊座望著暗戀對象時的眼神與平時不同，通常不敢直視對方，在對方面前說話
會面紅耳赤。白羊座求學時已經有暗戀異性或老師的經驗，但缺乏表白勇氣。

金牛座=最沉默的暗戀
如果暗戀是以不讓暗戀對象發現而論成敗的話，金牛座必定榮登榜首。金牛座最
容易暗戀工作/學習上有緊密接觸的異性，不展開追求的原因可能是對方早已心
有所屬或兩人的年齡和背景不相配。金牛座可以偷偷地喜歡一個人10年8年，對方
一點都不察覺。

雙子座=最飄忽的暗戀
雙子座的暗戀感情不穩定，很難長期暗戀單一對象，而且熱得急時亦冷得快，暗
戀情懷剛淡忘，又會暗戀另一位異性。暗戀是雙子座生活中不可缺少的一環。

巨蟹座=最癡心的暗戀
巨蟹座一旦暗戀上對方就會非常癡心，感情上較為自閉，會極力隱藏愛意，但是
做得不夠徹底，容易留下蛛絲馬跡。巨蟹座暗戀時心神不定，在暗戀對象身邊與
別人說話時，目光會不時轉到暗戀對象那邊去。

獅子座=最口硬心軟的暗戀
嘴巴不說愛上對方，行為上已經完全傾向於對方的階段，屬於口硬心軟的類型。
自尊心太強，任何情況下都會否認暗戀。害怕因為暗戀而被人取笑，暗戀對象要
反過來裝成暗戀獅子座的人，二人才有較高的戀愛發展機會

處女座=最起伏不定的暗戀
處女座即使早知自己在暗戀對方，也要先確認自己的想法。要是暗戀對象是相識
的朋友，處女座會多次接近對方，為的是試探自己的心意。一旦確定自己真的喜
歡對方，會主動接近地方，將暗戀發展成明戀。

天秤座=最易受傷的暗戀
天秤座暗戀初期已經確定自己與暗戀對象不會有結果，認為暗戀只會帶來感情的
挫折，所以極力迴避自己暗戀的對象。要是暗戀對象反過來示好，小天秤可能會
更痛苦。

天蠍座=守株待兔的暗戀
被看上的人通常不會知道小天蠍在打自己的主意，除非暗戀對象非常容易入手。
天蠍座的暗戀過程會相當漫長，可以默默等上2、3年，直至暗戀對象的戀情出現
問題，小天蠍就會突然出現成為戀情的第三者。

人馬座=最缺乏信心的暗戀
人馬座看到合適的異性，鼓不起勇氣追求對方或者刻意接近對方。對人馬座來說
，暗戀是無從入手或者不能落手的棋局。他們經常徘徊於情愛與放棄之間，不知
應否表白愛意。

山羊座=最勇往直前的暗戀
山羊座享受追求的樂趣大於被追求。他們通常是曾經追求對方可惜被拒，但自己
又無法放棄才會發展成暗戀。山羊座暗戀意志堅定，除非對方名花有主。

水瓶座=最感情豐富的暗戀
水瓶座容易暗戀人，隨時會暗戀只是見面一兩次的陌生人。水瓶座的暗戀次數很
多，在工作/學習的地方最容易令水瓶座陷入暗戀，而且可能同一時間內暗戀幾位
性格完全不同的異性。

雙重座=喜歡取捨的暗戀
雙重性格的雙魚座在談戀愛時常會暗戀另一位異性。暗戀通常是雙魚座心底最大
的秘密。要是發現沒有談戀愛的雙魚座在暗戀自己，那就要多加留意，可能小雙
魚在同一時間暗戀著兩個人，正在取捨之間。你要在雙魚座做出取捨前表明愛意，
戀愛成功機會較大。

I am a looser, literally.

I feel really bad about myself. My self-esteem/confidence is so low that I dislike myself for being like this. When people tell me about my wrongs that I already know, it makes me feel even worse. I'm so pathetic.

I don't like to be alone. I feel insecure sometimes. I enjoy acceptance. Rejection makes me scared. I want to be loved and protected. I want to find someone who makes me feel like I am amazing. However, every guy I've met makes me feel like crap. Maybe afterall, it is my problem.

When they used to say, it is not your fault.. He's just a jerk. But after several guys, it makes me think.. Maybe it is my problem. It's so fustrating too because I don't know my problem.

I hate the feeling of getting pushed away. I feel more and more out of control these days.
What is wrong with me? So many unnecessary thoughts run through my mind.

I am jealous. I am jealous of couples who love each other. I am jealous of singles who can cope well. I am jealous of singles who are having fun. I am jealous of kids who doesn't give a damn. I am jealous of the guys who gets away easy.

My hunger for having someone has grown so strong.. It is SO hard to keep in mind what I had in mind in September. What were my plans? I don't remember them anymore. I am living without any restrictions..

I've become this boring and needy person..
I feel so shit about myself..
Every time..
Every time it's like this...
I am starting to remember why I don't want to accept another person again..

Love never wanted me

MWUAHAHAH..

That's right. No more miss nice lady!
Game on again.
Anney is in the game. She's gonna play better than before.
She is going to play all of you.
She is a winning player =D

FAN

When is being too persistent too persistent?

Investment

Recently I've been thinking about buying a good pair of snowboard goggles. Hopefully by the end of the term, I've master the skill of snowboarding. Planning to buy a snowboard set sometime in October/November.. then I'll go snowboarding every weekend! Yeh!!!!

Reading alot of review on snowboard goggles.
Sigh so much to readdddd.. Can't decide which one to day XD

Hobbies

Summer: Homegirl life
- Watching youtube
- Exercise with Carmen
- Shopping
- Movies

Fall: Party animal life
- Knitting
- Drinking
- Partying
- Clubbing
- Socializing

Winter: Tomboy life
- Gym
- Watching NBA
- Reading romance novels
- Snowboarding
- Scrabble

Spring: No life

Get rich or die trying

My white roomie just told us she is subletting her place for spring term..
cause she just bought a house on university tonight!
Wow she's 4th afm going for her masters..
I mean shes just as young as us!
So good.. to buy a house using your own money..
that feeling must be great. I wish I can do that in the near future too..
But unlikely ahah..
JESS AND KX PLEASE GET A HOUSE AND SUBLET TO ME LOL

What's on my mind?

I don't like him anymore, so I shouldn't even care what he's up to now. Whatever my friend said was right. Who cares, huh? It is weird.. I used to like to complain and whine a lot about these things to people.. I think I've grown out of it.. not in a way I would like it to be tho.
I don't know why, but I feel slightly uncomfortable when talking about him. But I don't like him anymore so why would I feel uncomfortable, right? I know it's weird. I'm weird lol

Yesterday I woke up with a really bad dream.. It was about him. Was my subconscious telling me that I still care or haven't moved on yet? I think I have tho. It's been so long. Plus he is not the same person anymore either. There shouldn't be any feelings lingering on. Yes I'm trying to rationalize so that I can feel better for myself.

And there is also him. He doesn't even give a shit about me. Sigh..what the hell am I doing?

The thought of Valentine's day scares me. I don't like the feeling of being alone in general. The celebration of Valentine's day makes me feel more alone than I already am. They will have a lovely time together. I, on the other hand, is single and to spend the day by myself. The other him is probably too busy with his sports or hanging out with his friends. Why does it take me forever to move on? Maybe I should see some counselor or something. I mean I can't even handle these little situations. What if one day I'm divorced? How am I going to react LOL sorry my imagination just ran wild on its own :)

Ha. Karen just told me that her ex-crush asked if they still have a chance. She gave him an absolute NO. I'm very proud of you and admire your clear-headedness. I think I lack independence lol.

Yesterday I was out the entire day. First I went snowboarding. At first.. I still have undesired thoughts on my mind. But snowboarding down hill made me feel like everything has flown off my shoulders. I felt so much lighter in a way. After snowboarding.. I was going to meet up with Yunyi at Sweet Dreams. Jing came along cause he wanted to get bubble tea.

Anyways, out of coincidence, I encountered Yu-Jeong, Uni, and their guy friend. It was kinda awkward in a way. It's like.. I'm not really close with any of them.. But we're hanging out together. Later Yunyi and Jing's friend came and joined us. So it was 4 group of random people hanging out together lol.

It was pretty fun.. Get to know each of them better :)
Met two new people.. Didn't catch their names/numbers correctly. lol..
Maybe I'll see them sometime again.

I felt pretty good yesterday.. Not having to think of guy-related stuff.
I like having people around me. I like my attention. I like hanging out with people and not thinking about unnesscary things.

固執的我

剛剛發現甲人可能當初在利用我
嗯。。當你發現你被人家利用的時候作何感想?
只是把我當作備胎在看待嗎
難怪那時你說你很對不起﹐我還不明白
現在我懂了
你以為你是誰阿~
被利用的心情很不爽
可是我還是相當朋友
我病了嗎

NBA

Been watching basketball games lately~
It's so intense!!
Last game raptors almost lost to knicks! Raptors were only up by 1 point.
But they're doing pretty good so far. It's their 5th consecutive win~
Today's game was with indianna pacers..
At first pacers were down by 14 points.. then they slowly caught up!
to 97-97..
but raptors pwned them in 4th quarter..
and won with 117 - 102 :)
Omg I wanna watch bball game on tv or @ ACC..
someone bring me there!!!..
treat me w/ nice seats :) LOL

'Nuff said

3 strikes and you're out.

you striked 4 times.

Fuck you

Fuck you and your unattained promises..

Fuck this.

I'm mad at you.

But I'm mad at myself more believing something was about to change.
Believing that I might be......... I was wrong.


I hate myself for being so sluggish.
I don't like my position that I'm in.
in no position.

Whatever you say to me may mean nothing to you, but even a word from you meant something to me.

I oughta stop believing your words.
Cause none of them were true.

甜言蜜語 = 油腔滑調

安静了 - S.H.E.

只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡
夢想中　屬於我們的婚禮
卻成了　單人結婚進行曲
在這場愛情腳裡的拔河裡　愛我還是愛你
你選擇了自己

撒嬌的　可愛的　女人的　愛哭的
照片裡　曾經的都是你喜歡的
如今我還在原地　你卻走回你的記憶
你說我愛你太多　就快要把你淹沒
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落
分開是一種解脫　讓你好好的想我
我想要的那片天空　你是不是能夠給我

你說我給你太多　卻不能給我什麼
分不清激情承諾永恒或迷惑
愛情是一道傷口
我們各自苦痛
什麼是我最後溫柔
是因為我太愛你

Misc.

Aiyah, I can't decide whether I wanna go to CASA party even at Fed Hall or not.
I have no one to go with.. Well I kinda do.. But I don't really talk to him that much
I think he wants me to be his wingwoman LOL
Meh..I don't know..
Do I wanna drink? Do I wanna walk in the cold in a dress and heels? Hmmmn..

Oh yeah, Jing asked me to watch Sherlock Holmes with him on Wed..
Not that big of a fan of Sherlock Holmes.. Is the movie long? Maybe I'll fall asleep LOL
Uhhh maybe i'll drag cheryl along.. she wanted to watch sherlock holmes since forever..
but I keep bailing out >_<

I almost forgot.. I think I said something about going to Kzone next week..
Wow so fucking busy next week.. I didn't even realize it..

Mon - Physio psych midterm / Psych lab / study for Human physio midterm / FOCUS meeting
Tues - Study for human physio / Thermodynamics assign. / Human physio lab
Wed - Human physio midterm / Movie with jing or Kzone? / laundry (no more pants to wear)
Thurs - CIF exercise / Grocery shopping / Kzone?
Fri - CIF exercise / clean apartment /visit from them?

WSC - Beginner's Day

I went snowboarding with WSC yesterday! I really enjoyed it, despite the countless falls. Wow, I should've snowboarded earlier!! It was SO fun =D
I'm planning to go to the snowboard shop sometime next week. I wanna buy a super bright snowboard jacket and fit in with other boarders haha~
Oh and so that they can find me easily when I get lost~
OOOOh planning to go back to chicopee again next next week!

When we're about to get off the bus.. I couldn't even stand up properly to get off..= = SAD
Woke up today, I feel like I was paralyzed or something haha
Even when I sit my tush hurts >_<
Luckily I didn't get any bruises!
It was a worthwhile experience indeed. I'll snowboard every year now =DDD.. no more skiing HAHA...

一篇男生都會明白，女生都會感慨，知道太遲的文章

男人要永遠感謝在他20多歲的時候曾經陪在他身邊的女人，

因為20多歲的男人處在一生中的最低點,
沒錢、沒地位，沒房、沒車、沒事業，不能獨立又不想依賴，掙扎著彷徨著，尋找自己的位置！
而20多歲的女人卻是她生命中最燦爛的時候；

男人要永遠感謝在他20多歲的時候曾經陪在他身邊的女人，

因為二十多歲的男人還很“懵懂”，

男人有時好比洋蔥,要想看到洋蔥的心就需要一層一層去剝。

但是女人在剝的過程會不斷流淚剝到最後才知道，


.............原來洋蔥是沒有心的............

i wish

i wish i was cooler~
funnier~
smarter~
prettier~


i think my friends are better than me in all aspects T_T

again, i feel like i'm not good enough

is it jealousy or simply admiration?

I have to admit..

I am an attention whore..I think? I don't know.. the attention I get makes me feel secure..
that I don't feel like I'm alone.. or invisible? No clue.
it's always about me me me..
and maybe sometimes about you, but mostly me lol

I find that..
when people come to me and rant about their problems..
I do listen..
in a way I don't listen?
I still give my inputs and stuff..
but that's not what they want I don't think..
they want somebody who can just LISTENS to THEM and THEIR problems..

My friend was just ranting about his problems and such..
and I was giving my opinions and all..
In the end, he's still wishy washy about it..
But I think deep inside, he already has his answer..
Sigh sometimes I wish I could just shut up and listen to people
I talk too much =_=
The more I say the more wrongs I make LOL..

..I should be hardcore studying for tmw's cognitive psychology right now..
somehow I don't feel so motivated as last week..
need to find that drive back =(

X-FILE/SURVIVOR: ANNEY IS SCARED

Okay wtf???? my wisdom tooth is growing out!!!! I hate the dentist or whoever..
I don't wanna see him!! :( So scary...
I never had my tooth pulled out before...
they just fall out by themselvesss..
OMGGGGGGGGGGG I DONT LIKE THIS..
eventho im not experiencing any pain from it or anything..
BUT STILl..
the day will come...........~

嚷嚷著

Typed: 1/18/10
過得充實一點﹐愛自己多一點﹐不要去追尋不是屬於自己的東西。
拋開過去﹐不要讓它阻止你迎接更好的未來。
嘗試多一點不同的東西﹐cause you'll never know if you're good at it.

勇敢多很多點﹐踏出第一步是幸福的開始!

Do whatever you must do now until you can do whatever you want later.

I do think too much

I think too much about unnecessary things..
Those who don't me well enough might think I'm an happy-all-the-time person..
But seriously, I'm not. I guess I like to pretend that my problems aren't there most of the times so I don't think about it..
and when I do think about it.. It just goes downhill from there..
I think about what should've happened, might've happened..could've happened..
and maybe all of this is my fault.. I'm not good enough..
Also sometimes I take people's comments personally..
even though I know they are just joking..
and I think about that too.. why would they say that.. do they really meant it?
I think I cry about many things..
I can't hold my tears..
I cry when I feel lonely
I cry when I feel helpless
I cry when I feel hopeless..
I cry when I feel like I want to give up..
I cried so many times..
I think I cry more as I get older..
It's weird..
Sometimes I cry for the sake of crying..
I just want to cry..
or think about sad stuff..
and cry about that..
=__= wtf?
I don't wanna dwell in this emoness =***(
or maybe I do..
gahhh~ why am I so complicated?!

Goal

So good everyone is on co-op except me! :(
I'm so lonely, I have nobody for all my own~
I just watched a video and I'm so motivated ..once again
I wanna earn some money this term~ So broke lately
I think I should start saving my money and stop spending so much~
I wanna buy a house of my own before I'm 30
is that possible? lol

If possible this term:
- boost gpa
- get REALLY involved in wsc <3
- get a job and save some money
- study for pcat again
- knit more scarves
- grow longer nails
- cook new recipes

Mmm I feel like my goals are so short termed..but that's just for now :)
it's all goooD~!

and I miss you all who's on co-op right now! :*(

熱血

這個學期﹐我有一股莫名的衝勁很想把我的學習搞好
現在我對與我學習的熱誠可是熱騰騰的呢
希望這個衝勁可以保持下去
大家跟著我一起衝吧!
I feel so positive, so motivated!

今天我參加了Waterloo的滑雪社團﹐很期待跟大家一起玩滑雪板!!

I'm so psyched and pumped! My day can't get any better =)

Marks

I barely tried last term..
Well I did in the beginning..
But it just went downhill..
cause I kept clubbing, partying and drinking.
Good thing I have great friends to depend on. and they are smart too HAHA <3
and I think I'm not that dumb either
I passed the courses with average marks =_=
so if I tried..then maybe I'll ace them LOL
my goal this term is to NERD ALL THE WAY
and snowboard =D

坎坷的愛情路

之前 聽到他跟某某人已經在一起有一段時間了
而且他們還很恩愛
一想 難道當初真的是我個人的問題嗎
然後另一個他也好像有曖昧的對象了
真好﹐每個都有人陪伴著他們
而那個人不是我﹐唉
我一直在這個圈圈打轉
一直在我低潮的時候﹐ 遇到這些爛人
實在太容易陪人打動﹐說服
愛情不要我
我也不要愛情

Love Blindness

"Love is Blind" -- I don't believe in that. I don't believe love is blind. I believe we choose to be blind when we're in love.

The upcoming holiday

Today I went to dollarama to buy a stapler..and when i got in..
they stocked up all the valentine's day stuff.
Gosh I hate valentine's day =_=
they should make a singles' day~
Valentine's day makes me think..
why am i by myself and no one is celebrating it with me >:(
valentine's day sucks! i'll prolly hideout in my bed lol