Pet Animal

如果我能比喻我像什麼的話..
我覺得我像一個Pet Animal
無聊,沒人陪的時候才找我玩
對我愛理不理的感覺 我受夠了
為什麼我都是在等的那個人
走開 我說不出口

Stupid Girls

Just a friend, just a brother.. why do I have to constantly remind myself that? I know there's no chance.. I let it go. Why am I still jealous of other girls? I'm so stupid.. I like to drink dry vinegar..Why isn't my heart convinced? I have to accept it anyways.. because that day will come sooner or later..

Lately been partying a lot because I want to meet new people.. Actually I feel so lonely. I just want to have lots of people around me. It's not about finding a new guy. I just don't want to be alone..

I don't have his attention.. so I want attention of others.. It's just not enough.

I feel like I wasn't being myself last night.. I kinda forgot my limits, but I remembered it again.. I just want to run far far away.. and find comfort in pain~

Maybe it's just better if I'm hiding away.. not knowing anything.. no facebook.. and disconnect from the world.. life would be so much better.. Can I do it?

FAN

When is being too persistent too persistent?

What's on my mind?

I don't like him anymore, so I shouldn't even care what he's up to now. Whatever my friend said was right. Who cares, huh? It is weird.. I used to like to complain and whine a lot about these things to people.. I think I've grown out of it.. not in a way I would like it to be tho.
I don't know why, but I feel slightly uncomfortable when talking about him. But I don't like him anymore so why would I feel uncomfortable, right? I know it's weird. I'm weird lol

Yesterday I woke up with a really bad dream.. It was about him. Was my subconscious telling me that I still care or haven't moved on yet? I think I have tho. It's been so long. Plus he is not the same person anymore either. There shouldn't be any feelings lingering on. Yes I'm trying to rationalize so that I can feel better for myself.

And there is also him. He doesn't even give a shit about me. Sigh..what the hell am I doing?

The thought of Valentine's day scares me. I don't like the feeling of being alone in general. The celebration of Valentine's day makes me feel more alone than I already am. They will have a lovely time together. I, on the other hand, is single and to spend the day by myself. The other him is probably too busy with his sports or hanging out with his friends. Why does it take me forever to move on? Maybe I should see some counselor or something. I mean I can't even handle these little situations. What if one day I'm divorced? How am I going to react LOL sorry my imagination just ran wild on its own :)

Ha. Karen just told me that her ex-crush asked if they still have a chance. She gave him an absolute NO. I'm very proud of you and admire your clear-headedness. I think I lack independence lol.

Yesterday I was out the entire day. First I went snowboarding. At first.. I still have undesired thoughts on my mind. But snowboarding down hill made me feel like everything has flown off my shoulders. I felt so much lighter in a way. After snowboarding.. I was going to meet up with Yunyi at Sweet Dreams. Jing came along cause he wanted to get bubble tea.

Anyways, out of coincidence, I encountered Yu-Jeong, Uni, and their guy friend. It was kinda awkward in a way. It's like.. I'm not really close with any of them.. But we're hanging out together. Later Yunyi and Jing's friend came and joined us. So it was 4 group of random people hanging out together lol.

It was pretty fun.. Get to know each of them better :)
Met two new people.. Didn't catch their names/numbers correctly. lol..
Maybe I'll see them sometime again.

I felt pretty good yesterday.. Not having to think of guy-related stuff.
I like having people around me. I like my attention. I like hanging out with people and not thinking about unnesscary things.

固執的我

剛剛發現甲人可能當初在利用我
嗯。。當你發現你被人家利用的時候作何感想?
只是把我當作備胎在看待嗎
難怪那時你說你很對不起﹐我還不明白
現在我懂了
你以為你是誰阿~
被利用的心情很不爽
可是我還是相當朋友
我病了嗎

'Nuff said

3 strikes and you're out.

you striked 4 times.

i wish

i wish i was cooler~
funnier~
smarter~
prettier~


i think my friends are better than me in all aspects T_T

again, i feel like i'm not good enough

is it jealousy or simply admiration?

X-FILE/SURVIVOR: ANNEY IS SCARED

Okay wtf???? my wisdom tooth is growing out!!!! I hate the dentist or whoever..
I don't wanna see him!! :( So scary...
I never had my tooth pulled out before...
they just fall out by themselvesss..
OMGGGGGGGGGGG I DONT LIKE THIS..
eventho im not experiencing any pain from it or anything..
BUT STILl..
the day will come...........~

I do think too much

I think too much about unnecessary things..
Those who don't me well enough might think I'm an happy-all-the-time person..
But seriously, I'm not. I guess I like to pretend that my problems aren't there most of the times so I don't think about it..
and when I do think about it.. It just goes downhill from there..
I think about what should've happened, might've happened..could've happened..
and maybe all of this is my fault.. I'm not good enough..
Also sometimes I take people's comments personally..
even though I know they are just joking..
and I think about that too.. why would they say that.. do they really meant it?
I think I cry about many things..
I can't hold my tears..
I cry when I feel lonely
I cry when I feel helpless
I cry when I feel hopeless..
I cry when I feel like I want to give up..
I cried so many times..
I think I cry more as I get older..
It's weird..
Sometimes I cry for the sake of crying..
I just want to cry..
or think about sad stuff..
and cry about that..
=__= wtf?
I don't wanna dwell in this emoness =***(
or maybe I do..
gahhh~ why am I so complicated?!

Lonely, Lonely Christmas. Merry, Merry Christmas.

My mom told me to clean up my room..so I did. Guess what I found?
Ugh someone went over my pile of stuff that I put away that are related to my exes.
Including love letters. Gosh. How embarrassing having someone else read it =___='
Anyways I was just reading over them. Sigh~ the good sweet old days~
Whatever they wrote to me..the promises they made..all seemed like a lie.
The stuff I dug out made me think a little.
Haiiiii..i hate cleaning ~!!!!

曹格-數到五答應我~ I wanna be your lover, don't wanna be your friend~

That day I got locked out of my apartment..I messaged a lot of ppl..and also messaged him. Everyone seemed so caring and KX even spared her studying time to help me. But his reply was "Sorry gotta study soon. ttyl". That killed me a little inside.

After talking on the phone with my friend the other night, she was right. If he doesn't care for me, why should I care for him? I'm really sick and tired of waiting because I was waiting all along.. Even though I "moved out of that phase", I still didn't completely let go. I always wondered about what could have happened and, what might happen, and what will happen.


我毀滅愛情 就算不甘心
只能欺騙自己 最後還是省省力氣
不能帶著愛擁抱你
我們之間 朋友而已


It really sucks to wait for someone who you know won't like you back the same way you like him. I don't even want to talk to him anymore. Cause I know we're just friends, but I can't see him as a friend.

I thought there was a moment that we connected, but also likely that he connected with many other girls as well. I didn't think or want to believe that he was what people said he was. I have my doubts now.

Since I don't even matter to him at all..it doesn't make any difference if he looses a friend like me. I guess it's a good thing that he has coop for winter term.. This gets me sometime to forget about him.

-The End -

經過教訓﹐可是還沒長大的女孩

心情好複雜哦。。
現在依然還是像普通朋友。沒有什麼不好的。。很平靜﹐很好。
我發現我比以前沒有那麼可望他了。難道當時我只是一時衝動嗎?
那天我約他出來。。我到底想要他給我什麼回應呢?
那天我們就像再普通不過的朋友在閑聊。。
他說他會來toronto倒數。。是在給我假的希望﹐假的承諾嗎?
可能他只是隨口說說而已。。心理還是有一點點care
我離開之前﹐我們有hug goodbye。。
真的是純粹友誼嗎。。還是一直以來都是我想太多?
如果他覺得我煩的話。。他可以不用一直應付我阿。。也不需要附和我的要求。
我的心情感覺好矛盾。。
已經試著不想啦。。一直很努力得把他當朋友看待。。
小小一部份的我。。在盼望著。。他會像以前如此的喜歡我而且守住他說過的承諾。。
當然一切都是花言巧語。。
可是。。
我是愛情的弱者嘛。。

Anney is fat = Anney is stressed

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG so stresssseddd!!
I swear organic chemistry is the worst course on earth..even worse than physics..!!! I think half of the class maybe even more..is gonna fail the final...or the course!!!!!
When he asks us clicker questions..the result is basically 25,25,25,25% bar graphs..
pretty saddddd..cause no one knows the answer...well only 25% of the class does..LOL


anyways by thhursday..
ill have a new hairdo~
i'll have tons of WHITE HAIRRRRRRRRRRRrrr..
i don't even need to dye it..omggggggggg

and when i stress, i eat, i get fat, i stress some more, i eat some more, i get fat some more and the list goes on

Finals are here~

I'm studying Organic Chemistry right now..Blah
I don't understand it at all..
I hate this textbook..so friggen thick..
and content is so confusing =*(((..

Back to studying now...sighhhhhhhh

Shit happens

"It is not even a week, and he's got you where he wants you to be" --Xavier

You're so right. Screw it. I'll bury myself into piles of stats paper @@..

Sigh

Anney doesn't want to play anymore.
Getting boring.
Getting tangents.
Getting nasty.

Don't be too serious.
Don't get too close to me.

I am just out for fun.
Stupid guys.

When is Mr. Right going to come?

---
You can say that I like many people at the same time..
or like nobody at all.

Insomia

Fvccccccck. I hardly have insomia..I haven't had insomia since I don't know when. WTF? I always sleep so soundly like a dead person = =..

Couldn't sleep last night..I kept flipping around..Blah

and then I had such a horrrible dream when I actually fell asleep..

So I was "working" in this group..with 2 girls and a guy. Unknown faces. One of the girl was pissing me off! We kept picking fights. Whatever = =...

Then I woke up..

Here I am...I think I slept around 4/5am??..

Annoying BEEches

I don't like my friends being judgmental of my other friends. It annoys me that it annoys me OMG I am annoyed = = All of my friends are nice people. You haven't hung out with those people before, who are you to judge? So stop doubting my friends/other friends/friends of friends and more friends...Whatever, BEECHES.. Stop making your friend here, I, feel uncomfortable.

Rant202

FVCK..I wanna see a dermatologist..T_T

Too much whiteheads..

Too much blackheads..

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGg

I hate..

自私又没有义气

的人

ps: i love naiq