承諾

承諾不算什麼
世界不停的轉動
人也跟著世界的腳步在變
我們料不到接下來到底會發生什麼事
承諾只是一時的
誰可以保證他會證實他給的承諾呢
說不定﹐ 下一秒他已經把它給忘了一干二淨
別傻了
期望越高﹐失落感越大

我怕﹐孤單﹐寂寞

一個人
好孤單﹐好寂寞﹐好害怕。
不喜歡這種fu~

我等的人到底會是誰?

怎麼我遇到的人都不適合我
遷就的我好"淚"

一個一個這樣的離棄我
每次被拋棄的感覺很差

我就像陷在愛情的slow sand裡
每當我踏出一步
我會陷得越來越深
到底什麼時候那個人會出現
把我拉起來

一個人﹐等待著未知數
值得嗎

一個人 還是 兩個人
比較好呢

愛得愛到好怕
無法空制的感情
令人感覺很沒有安全感

"愛情對我說謊
它帶他們來騙我說渴望的有可能﹐有希望"

感謝他們曾經的陪伴
可是現在有點不習慣

他們走的時候 也把我的笑容給帶走了
不想在假裝﹐在逞強
因為我很脆弱

愛情真的是這樣嗎

是的話﹐ 那我不要了
不想在掉入那愛情的懸崖

一個人
沒有了 愛 到底是怎樣

經過教訓﹐可是還沒長大的女孩

心情好複雜哦。。
現在依然還是像普通朋友。沒有什麼不好的。。很平靜﹐很好。
我發現我比以前沒有那麼可望他了。難道當時我只是一時衝動嗎?
那天我約他出來。。我到底想要他給我什麼回應呢?
那天我們就像再普通不過的朋友在閑聊。。
他說他會來toronto倒數。。是在給我假的希望﹐假的承諾嗎?
可能他只是隨口說說而已。。心理還是有一點點care
我離開之前﹐我們有hug goodbye。。
真的是純粹友誼嗎。。還是一直以來都是我想太多?
如果他覺得我煩的話。。他可以不用一直應付我阿。。也不需要附和我的要求。
我的心情感覺好矛盾。。
已經試著不想啦。。一直很努力得把他當朋友看待。。
小小一部份的我。。在盼望著。。他會像以前如此的喜歡我而且守住他說過的承諾。。
當然一切都是花言巧語。。
可是。。
我是愛情的弱者嘛。。

Year 2009

To my ladies:

Year 2009 is ending soon. This semester I’ve made a lot of new friends. But I didn’t forget old friends either! I think “Your friends are all that matters in the end” is true because you guys make me smile a mile wide lol. Past few months have been hectic for me. Thanks for those for lent me their ears and listened to me complain. I’m glad I’ve met you guys. There are some things that I cannot forget.

"A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though they know you are slightly cracked."

Even though everyone is at diffrent schools, and we haven't seen each other for a long time, you guys are still the best!!! haha. Can't wait for 23rd~ and see everyone again =) hehe. Only 9 days til christmas and 15 days til countdown. Lets go skating sometime, shall we? :)

Although everyone matured in some ways and have new friends to hang out with. I'm sure we all miss the high school times and that little "姑婆" is still inside us lol.

Can you believe it? We lived almost 20 years of our lives already. Time sure flies by fast. Only two more years and we're done university (hopefully).

I think Year 2010 will be an awesomeone one as well because I'll have you guys with me :D

Anney is fat = Anney is stressed

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG so stresssseddd!!
I swear organic chemistry is the worst course on earth..even worse than physics..!!! I think half of the class maybe even more..is gonna fail the final...or the course!!!!!
When he asks us clicker questions..the result is basically 25,25,25,25% bar graphs..
pretty saddddd..cause no one knows the answer...well only 25% of the class does..LOL


anyways by thhursday..
ill have a new hairdo~
i'll have tons of WHITE HAIRRRRRRRRRRRrrr..
i don't even need to dye it..omggggggggg

and when i stress, i eat, i get fat, i stress some more, i eat some more, i get fat some more and the list goes on

Finals are here~

I'm studying Organic Chemistry right now..Blah
I don't understand it at all..
I hate this textbook..so friggen thick..
and content is so confusing =*(((..

Back to studying now...sighhhhhhhh

Ms. Lonely

I think I am really annoying. I complain this to everyone. But thats who I am. I am a person who cannot hide her feelings. Anyone can read me like a book.

Today I was feeling down again. I did good. I didn't text him at all or message him or whatever. When i got home today around 5pm, he messaged me when I got online. C'mon. I'm in a healing process over here. Today my heart was set to do these certain things and now you're here to distract me. I replied back. But his replies afterwards were so cold. Why did you even bother to talk to me in the first place? Give me some time and leave me alone.

I'm happy I have friends around who care for me. Sometimes it feels like it is not enough because that is not what I want ultimately. I have given up on this mostly, but part of me is still lingering over there.

I've talked to this person..and she reminded me that this is merely an infatuation. I have to admit: it is true. I don't know what is wrong with me. Maybe I don't like the feeling of getting played.. Maybe I just wanted to be loved by anyone.. I wish it was that simple.

You guys question me what I saw in him. I seriously don't know. It is just a feeling. I hope this feeling could die off faster. Maybe it is not going away because part of me doesn't want it to die off.

Feeling alone - No one is here

"You lay there crying yourself to sleep, with no one there next to you.

Why do you wait and hope? What is it that keeps you here?
Talking to an empty bed, an empty room, an empty house.
Not understanding where we've gone wrong.
Drifting so far apart, it's hard to see.
Too close to eech other some might say, loosing the way I perceive.
Pain, hurt and love all mixed into one.
This lonely heart is aching."